Tearing Myself Apart

Because I'm tearing myself apart
With all that I've done.
Tearing apart my fucked up heart,
the heart that you've always won.

Because I'm tearing myself to pieces,
with all the guilt in my mind,
And because my love for you never ceases
Our souls are eternally twined.

Because I'm tearing my heart out,
Its no lie, I know it to be true.
Like the rain in my mind's drought,
it never comes, just like you.

Because I'm tearing what you gave me,
The way you smashed my soul,
Giving no thought to the left behind debris,
No thought to what will make me whole.

Because I'm gluing up the cracks,
Repairing the mirror, shards of I,
You give no thought to these tear tracks-
That seep from my blue eye.

Because I'm healing after all this time,
Remembering you and your love,
Remembering those memories sublime,
And the pain afterwards thereof.